Big Girl Lost, Little Girl Found

Hush, Mama, it breaks my heart to hear

That this is hard for you.

Your tears,

Tumble from your eyes

When you describe

How it feels….

Brain turning to mush….

Hush.

I can’t bear the thought

Of your thoughts being lost

The cost…

Is too great.

You’ve been GREAT.

How do I find the way

To carry this

Or let it go?

I let my tears fall, too,

I guess.

Joined with yours

Until they dry up finally

And turn into laughter.

Giggles and wiggles

Like little children…

Running

From everything

Anything.

Bursting at the seams

Neither of us screams,

Yet it’s there.

The shrillness of the invisible sound

Of not knowing how to be…

With this.

Quiet, Mom. Let’s look away

Or stay

Within ourselves looking out

Confused

At what it’s all about.

Not able to be

Free

Of the fear

Underneath dread

Inside your head.

And you tell me

Just let it be

What it is.

Cry.

Laugh.

Fear.

Until there isn’t any more.

What are we here for?

Shhhh… Mother.

Dry your eyes and I’ll dry mine.

You and I

Thanking Life for one more day.

One more smile.

One more tear.